What have I done to deserve love like this?

It has to be something I did in a former life, right?

'Cause it feels like I'm very much screwing up this one.

But, maybe on not?

Perhaps, in my novice attempts to become a better

wife,

mother,

woman,

and human,

I am actually succeeding at such.

Could that be possible?

That I'm taking my missteps from each day,

learning from them,

making them less,

and becoming more comfortable with this woman in transition.

What if?

What if I deserve a love like this, just as much as the next?

Even as much as the mother

who never yells,
bribes,
or
threatens consequences,

who has a plethora of

patience,
empathy,
understanding
and incorporates positive parenting techniques without fail.

Yes.

Dare I contend that I deserve a love like this just as much as her?

I do.

Because a love like this, so

intense,
consuming,
and
meaningful,

it's not for the weak.

It's the perfect kind of love for a woman on a journey; one who enjoys the challenge and always rises to it.

The kind of depleting but utterly growth-provoking and exciting adventure that is tailormade for a lady seeking a purpose outside of herself -- one that allows her to contribute to this world, those she brought into it, who will, one day, God-willing, become well-rounded, kind grown folk who want change it for the better.

If ever I wonder again what it is that I might have done to deserve a love like this, I will remind myself that I didn't have to do anything.

Nothing at all.

That a love like this is deserved by everyone willing to

take up space,
simply be,
stay strong,
improve,
keep the faith,
and
enjoy the ride.

What if you deserve a love like this because you’re willing to work for it and earn it?

Yep, that sounds about right.