Why hello my 3am BFF…it’s so nice of you to join me again tonight.

And hey, did I say, thanks for the gentle nudge? I really needed it to get a jump start on my week.
No, really, I’m so appreciative.

You get me thinking and of course you ramble on and on, reminding me of everything I need to do today, on top of everything I forgot to do yesterday and then what I have already done and all of those doubts…

Did I say the right thing?
Ugh…why did I say that?
Why am I so awkward?
Hugs… I need to give more hugs. The girls need more hugs. Pretty soon one is leaving and I will not be able to give her hugs each day.
Ugh… why did I say that?
Tacos…should I make that for dinner?
Crock pot or Slow cooker? Same? different?Who has one?
Call the Ortho, cancel appointment.
I wonder if she used sunblock today. Her face looked a bit burnt.
Is her toe broken? Did she take any pain reliever before bed.
Ice… she needs to ice.
What did that text mean?
Water…drink more water.
Gosh, I really need a haircut.
And when was the last time I cleaned the inside of the oven?
So much laundry.
What should I do with the left over steak? Oh that’s right…tacos.
Why did I say that? Sometimes I have to stop talking.
Gas, the car needs gas.
I forgot to send the check again.
And that rsvp…oops! What’s another day?

Lots of reminders… but hey, isn’t that what my BFF is for? To remind me of my massive to do list that barely gets checked off?

To remind me of all that I am and the many ways I need to change?

So 3 am BFF, can we just have a chat?

I need to set up some boundaries.

What about stopping by around noon?
This way I’m feeling focused and confident.
And as much as I can appreciate your brutal honesty, at 3 am, I need a little more TLC.
Not a nudge or sometimes a full blown startling wake up… this is not helpful or productive for our friendship.

So 3 am BFF, what I think I’m trying to say is this…
I’m breaking up with you.

You are too much of a distraction and I don’t need you in my life.

I am strong.
I am capable.
I am loved.
I’m working on processing through things.

And please don’t be envious, even though breakups are hard…
sleep and I need to work on fostering our relationship.
Don’t be jealous.

I still appreciate you for you but it’s time for me to move on.