Sometimes I find myself living in the future. Anxiously awaiting, dreaming about or preparing for the next big event or the next job or the next vacation or simply—the next weekend.
I often live in the past, too- my soul is filled with regret and guilt over the years I was a crappy mom, daughter, friend, employee…. I replay mistakes and wonder if I need to right any wrongs. I beat myself up for not doing the laundry or cleaning the house. I wish I hadn’t spent so much money. If only, if only, if only…..I get hit by the shoulda, coulda, wouldas and I stay there for far too long….
And sometimes, when my mind is right and I am in conscious contact with God and I surround myself by people who live how I want to live and I am aware of just how short and precious life is….. I live 100 percent in the moment— one second at a time…. And it is the most beautiful thing.
Having all three kids back together for a short time is oh-so-special and I am soaking it up with gratitude and as still-of-a-mind as I am capable of. Tomorrow isn’t promised and yesterday is expired, friends. Don’t let your brain steal your now. Look at your feet. Be only where they are…..
If I could pause a moment in life, I think this would be it.