I had a miscarriage in May of 2014. My husband and I were trying to get pregnant with our second child. I was tracking everything, so I knew right away when I was pregnant. I told my family, the girls I taught with, and a few of my closest friends very early on. I was excited and thought “I know something bad could happen early on, but it could happen anytime during my pregnancy”. I wanted others to know-this ended up being a good thing for me later on.
When I was going through my miscarriage, there were so many emotions I was feeling.
Hope and worry-I experienced a “missed” miscarriage, so there were a few days that I clung to hope that it wasn’t really happening and everything would be ok.
Disappointment, dispair, depression, and anger-when I knew the reality what was happening.
Guilt-that couldn’t protect my baby and that I did something wrong to cause the miscarriage.
Fear-that I would possibly have to go through this pain again, or that I would not be able to get pregnant again.
It was actually a blessing to me that so many people already knew I was pregnant. They were a support system to me during this difficult time. I was surprised by how many people had experienced pregnancy loss as well. Others just let me know that they loved me, were praying for me, and were there for me-which meant so much.
My advice would be to let others know if you are experiencing a miscarriage or pregnancy loss. No one should have to go through this experience alone or kept a secret. If you know someone experiencing a miscarriage, let them know you love them!
I find comfort knowing my sweet angel baby is with Jesus and I will hold him or her one day.