I’m sorry about these days where you’re mad at me me for being stuck at home.
I’m sorry about the endless minutes and sometimes hours I’m stuck on a toilet when you want you want me to chase you around.
I’m sorry I wasn’t fast enough getting you your cup of milk.
I’m sorry I had to feed your little brother first before I had to run back to the bathroom and you were left crying in the kitchen for a few long minutes until I could get back.
I’m sorry I couldn’t carry you both up the stairs.
I’m sorry I couldn’t keep the dishes quite so clean.
I’m sorry I’m going to be stuck in bed for a few days after another hospital visit.
I’m sorry you can’t jump on mommy like you want.
But that doesn’t mean I love you less.
If anything I love you more than you will ever know.
You will never understand how much it hurts for me to watch you cry.
You will never understand how much it hurts me to do the things you want.
But every day I promise you I will try my best to love you and help you grow into a beautiful and responsible young man I know you can be.
Love always and forever, Your mama